Friday, February 27, 2009
Finding Time to Write
Last night I went to a 3 hour class at the community college. It was titled "Finding Time to Write" and taught by author Romney Nesbitt, a creativity coach. It was very interesting and I purchased her book hoping to help me get more focused on what I WANT to do. I want to write and paint but finding the time, or making the time seems to elude me. I actually decided something last night. I realized that for years when I thought I was just a procrastinator I was also a perfectionist. I never thought about that before, but it makes sense. I just thought I was a slob and would settle for so-so. I am a procrastinator because I have perfectionist tendencies and I procrastinate because I have trouble meeting the perfection I want to achieve. Does that make sense? Well, sort of in my head. I remember when I was a young, a teenager, doing my hair. I hated my hair and I would work it and work it and would get so frustrated because it was not perfect. I would cry, rip my hair out and throw the hair brush across the room because I couldn't get it right. I've been known to stop a project because there was a mistake or flaw and never finish it. My husband would disagree with me as he is the ultimate perfectionist and that is another problem is that I am trying to meet my perfectionist tendencies plus his. That can make a person crazy, crazy I say. I need to only worry about me and my own perfections.