Friday, July 11, 2008

Better

He's getting better every day. The Hubby finally had a bowl of potato soup and he finished the whole bowl scraping the sides and he said it even tasted good. You do not know how good that has made me feel. The poor guy last night tossed and turned and only slept about 2 hours. I just want him to eat and sleep so he will feel better. He's having weird dreams and reliving the whole nightmare of the explosion and I think that is eating on him. He's not said so but I think he's dealing with being almost 53 years old and his father dying at 53 years old. I know it has bothered him as he approached this age and then to have a life and death experience happened it has bound to have effected him.

I think today I'm kind of having some intense feelings of wanting to break down. I really never did as I had to be strong for B (A is still in CA). I've had moments of almost losing it but then I would have to answer the numerous phones and questions and there just wasn't a time to lose it. I had his cell phone, my cell phone. At home there were the cells then two lines on the home phone and the same at the office. I've had to retell the whole story over and over again to the point of nausea.

We have gone from a few days ago a machine breathing for him to he's sitting in the other room on his computer checking his emails. It's all so surreal if you know what I mean. It's one of those bumps in the road of life that trip you up and make you stop and take stock in your life and your future. Wow!

3 comments:

Kelly said...

Oh Honey, I'm so glad he's doing better, but I'm sad that you're struggling. Hugs to you!

Karen said...

I'm glad to hear The Hubby is home and on the mend after his ordeal.

My heart goes out to you as you look back at your week and start to feel your feelings. I can relate.

Stacy said...

Jill, I'm just now catching up on your week! That is so amazing and so scary, and I am so glad to hear that your husband is doing so well so soon. You must be exhausted. Please don't forget to take care of yourself too. Best wishes for strength and continued healing for everyone!